Life As I Know It

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone :)

Apa khabar semua? Hopefully all is well. But Egypt is not doing so well :( I don't really know what's happening, tapi siang tadi here in Alexandria there was a riot going on. Dah la in front of our faculty pulak tu. Terbakar-terbakar semua kot, tengok dalam gambar flames going up :/ Lepas tu kawan-kawan  yang rumah kat area Azarita (area faculty) cakap sampai ke rumah dorang terasa pedih tear gas tu huhu. Thank God today is Friday so takdak la kelas today, and esok pun like last week dapat off day, for reason I'm not quite sure off. I only hope that Egypt will finally be stable, in all aspects.

Sekarang ni still 21hb kat Mesir but kat Malaysia dah 22nd kan, so a birthday shout out to a good friend of mine, Fatimah Amira Zuhairi! Happy burthday gurlll, you ain't little kid anymore *gaya ghetto habis* haha. Happy birthday Bubu sayang, you're already 20 so welcome the the 20's :) Sorry tak dapat nak buat surprise sebab nak keluar sekarang macam dangerous kan so sorry you had to stay home on the night of your birthday :( In sha Allah nanti kita jumpa and I'll give you one big hug because I am one nice and lovely sister ahakzzz :D Ok gewdix gilewww =_=

Haih time ni pulak iTunes dok play lagu fenfeeling. Terima kasih iTunes sebab memahami jiwa Syamimi yang memang melancholic ni (y) Well today I came across this one video made by Langit Ilahi. It's about someone wanting to get married but actually dia just macam bluntly fikir nak kahwin without being really prepared. Below is the video, silalah tonton jika sudi.



After watching this, I felt like quite affected. It's like all these while I think only on the surface tapi tak like really think deep. Yes, I am still young. I'm 20 for God's sake. But hey nowadays ramai people my age dah berumah tangga, yang nak beranak pun ada. These days people macam patah balik to zaman dulu where people get married at an early age. It's a good thing actually, sangat baik sebenarnya. Tapi it's not applicable to all, including myself. Itu saya sedar. Yes sometimes I get a little jealous tengok that one married couple in my class yang sangatlah bahagia and lovey dovey bersama, you feel like so forever alone and you go, "What am I doing with my life? T_T" hahaha lebih kurang laa. But they are different, than I am. We are of the same age tapi maturity level tu sangat berbeza. The wife memang kelihatan matang, and takde la nak merapu macam kita ni haa kerja dok hoo haa pom pang pom pang sembang entah apa pun tak tau la =_= The husband pun very matured, definitely not a boy though dia baru 20.

Memang la my inner little squeaky voice deep inside ni dok rasa macam "itew pewn nak tawennnn!" but woahh get a hold of yourself sister. You ain't layak yet. We have to think like secara keseluruhan. This is the time where what your heart wants go against what your mind thinks. Think rational. Bila I watched the video,  it made me think deep. I ain't matured enough sebab I am honestly kinda childish. Sometimes I can't differentiate either I'm being manja ( typical anak bongsu) or just plain immature? Entah la I myself pun tak pasti. Then of course, I am NOT financially capable sebab I'm still studying dan hanya mengharapkan duit yuran from JPA serta pemberian dari mak dan ayah tsk tsk. Memang la saya sering mengumpul duit semenjak kecil tetapi berapa lah sangat yang saya ada tsk tsk. I am also not organised enough, sometimes I can't even manage myself. How am I suppose to manage a household? And yang paling penting, ilmu saya masih belum mencukupi. In order to have a blissful marriage, ilmu tu sangat penting, ilmu agama in particular. I still lack in so many ways :(

Marriage is so much more than just being in love. It's committing yourself to someone, life long. It's true when you love someone you're willing to do just about anything, but when you're married ianya menjadi satu tanggungjawab, and you can never run away from it. It's not the same dengan zaman cintan cintun. You live with em, you eat with em, you sleep with em. That's the time when you really get to know someone, their true self. Annoying or not, itulah teman hidup kita. Makan minum dia kita kena jaga, pakaian dia semua kita kena jaga, semua benda la kita nak kena jaga. Kalau diri sendiri pun terkedek-kedek lagi macam mana nak jaga orang lain? Tak sanggup kita nak kecewakan orang yang kita sayang :'( Memang la I can cook, I can do laundries, chores and all sebab memang sekarang ni pun duduk rumah sendiri kat Mesir kena buat semua tu. But sekarang boleh la cincai boncai sebab duduk sendiri tapi nanti kalau dah ada laki tak boleh dah. Pastu mak mentua tengok lagi waaaa kenot kenot T_T

Sedih memang sedih. Ikut hati kita memang sentiasa nak ada dengan yang tersayang. Tapi, kita kena berpijak di bumi yang nyata dan kena sedar diri. Saya tau saya masih keanak-anakan. Banyak lagi yang saya perlu pelajari in order to be a good zaujah. Tak boleh juga pentingkan diri sendiri, kena tengok keadaan orang tu juga. Dia mampu ke tak, dia bersedia ke tak. Sebab we're in this together, so any decision mesti la unanimous, mesti sepakat. Kita kalau menikah, nak la sampai ke Jannah. Kan? :')

I'm gonna end this right here. There's too much I wanna say, but some should be kept to just myself and Allah. Hanya dengan berdoa kepada-Nya yang dapat merubah sesuatu, in sha Allah.

Till then, toodles :)

p/s: It's a bold move when someone went straight to your parents and tell them what they really want. Thank you :')

Assalamualaikum and a very good day dear readers :)

*Thinking Bout You cover by Yuna playing as I'm writing*

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Ilahi for another day and still am able to continue with life. It's 12.50 am here in Egypt. Sepatutnya by now I should be sleeping sebab esok kelas pagi at 8am, but guess what? Esok cuti yayerzzzzzzzzzzzz! Hahahaha happynya rasa macam nak bergolek-golek turun bukit macam dalam cerita Hindustan. Hihi over. Well syukur sebenarnya dapat cuti. Bukannya tak suka belajar, but I'm just tired you know. Dental School is ain't no joke I tell ya. Especially batch kami ni yg pioneer batch yang terpaksa catch up credit hours untuk nak graduate in 5 years time. Problem came bila masa 1st year after riot dulu faculty kinda like did an error in managing our schedule thus menyebabkan kami lack credit hours, that's why now hectic gila life sebab sem ni we're taking 20 credit hours *pengsan*.

Kelas memang sah pagi sampai petang, and then practical session yang memang always menguji especially bila nak practice tampal gigi and buat gigi palsu. Man, I'm not good when it comes to all these work yang memerlukan seni, but bila practice tu kinda got better la, alhamdulillah. Dah la kelas memang pagi sampai petang (memang selalu sampai rumah lepas maghrib laa tambah pulak sekarang 5pm dah masuk waktu), cuti pulak only on Fridays T______T Kesian kan kesian kan? Tsk tsk. Makin lama rasa makin longlai sebab macam dah penat. Tapi tu laa, semalam cakap via LINE ngan mak, and mak pesan memang ni lah yang I have to go through in order to become a dentist. Memang kita sedia tau to get the title "Doctor" memang tak semudah mencicah biskut Hup Seng dalam air milo (ehh? sedap la pulak lama tak makan biskut Hup Seng T_T). So apa pun, kena la tabah dan redha menghadapi hari-hari yang mencabar ini, with exams every week. Only Lord knows how tough it is, but He is with me so in sha Allah I'll make throught it :')

So kenapa cuti esok ni? Haa actually kita pun tak tau sangat sebenarnya, tapi esok ada some sort of an election happening here in Egypt. For me to talk about Egypt's political affairs, quite tough laa. Sangat complicated. Even our doctors pun macam rasa semua ni macam nonsense. Issue sekarang ni sebab rakyat marah dengan the new constitution yang Islamist dominant katanya, I'm not so sure. But these people marah kat Morsy la ekceli. Tak faham betul laa, I think Morsy dah cukup bagus dah sebab he was the only one leader yang usaha nak tolong Gaza the other day and yet people are going against him. I mean come on, give him a chance laa. Dia baru je take over tampuk pemerintahan so why not give him the chance untuk jalankan kerja dia using his own way? Dulu Mobarak korang bagi dia sampai 30 years and now when Morsy naik tak sampai setahun pun dah nak punish dia macam ni? Serious tak faham orang Mesir ni. Memang arab ni suka gaduh sesama sendiri =_=

Btw, on 12/12/12 (tarikh yang sangat significant isn't it), wakil wakil Misi Solidariti to Gaza dropped by in Alexandria to share with us about their experience while in Gaza. One of them is Farrah Adeeba, personaliti TV yang cantik tuu. Had the opportunity to take picture with her hik hik. Alhamdulillah I feel so blessed that I got the chance to be there, listening to stories fresh from Gaza. Ya Allah, how lucky they were sebab dapat jejak kaki kat the holy land of Palestine. In sha Allah one day I will too. Bila dengar Kak Farrah cerita, rasa macam my heart is cringing, mengenangkan the pain our brothers and sisters had to go through. Bila dia tunjuk pictures of the martyrs and those who were badly injured especially innocent little kids, bergenang mata. Kejamnya Israel, terlampau kejam. Memang setan bertopengkan manusia. Tak tau la nak cakap apa, speechless. Bila Kak Farrah cerita how the Palestinians are very strong and tak menagih simpati, instead dorang dok cakap we are their hero and this one part I became sebak bila dia cakap this one Palestinian lady cakap macam ni kat dia, "We will meet again, and we will meet again in Jannah". Subhanallah, time tu memang sebak rasa. Orang Palestin sentiasa dok doakan kita tapi kita selalu lupakan mereka. Betapa ignorantnya we Muslims around the world.

Bukan maksud nak offend sesiapa, but this is just my personal feelings lah. Orang Palestin tu sebenarnya dah macam our own blood, and Palestin tu bukan saja milik orang Palestin, tapi milik kita orang Islam. Takkan la kita sanggup tengok tanah yang Allah dah berikan  untuk kita diperlalukan sebegitu oleh Zionis yang memang macam hareyyyy. I mean come on, kiblat kita yang pertama kat situ okayyy. We as Muslims kenalah pelihara and fight for what is ours. It saddens me how ignorant umat Islam sekarang ni. Okay la bukan senang kan nak boycott stuffs sebab memang product dorang ni sangat laa widespread (I pun tak mampu lagi nak boycott completely sebab banyak sangat barang depa), tapi macam yang super obvious contributors macam Starbucks tuu, come on laaa. McD tu I'm like okay laa boleh cut some slack lagi la kalau orang nak sangat makan sebab everyone eats McD so memang susah nak let go kot for some individuals plus harga dia affordable kan. Tapi bila saya tengok orang dok post gambar Instagram dok minum and lepak kat Starbucks, geram je rasa, seriously. Awat la hampa sanggup pi contribute free free kat depa? Dah la macam mahai kot drinks dia (for me laa sebab iols bukan la orang kaya mak kita tak ajar kita minum tempat-tempat macam ni), pastu macam for that one cup you pay like how much? Not a small amout I think. And with that hampa telah bagi depa more sources untuk generate and up kan lagi depa punya armed forces so depa bole pi attack saudara seagama kita. Bijak, hampa memang bijak *clap clap*.

Okay laa emo pulak bila cakap pasal ni. Come on people, wake up. Do something, even just a little. Tak cool mana aih dok minum Starbucks, cool lagi minum kopi kat warung uncle uncle, authentic lagi. And it ain't cool kalau kita abaikan and buat tak kisah kat orang Palestin. Malu sikit, depa tu for sure masuk syurga, tak kisah la mati kena serang or what, sebab mereka berjihad pertahankan tanah orang Islam. Kita? Renung-renungkanlah okay. I bukan nak punish ke nak judge ke apa, sorry if I terkasar bahasa. Tapi I'm really upset, mengenangkan mereka di sana. Mulianya mereka sebab sentiasa doakan semua orang Islam :'(

I should stop, dok membebel dah ni. Sorry semua, saya memang emotional T____T  May Allah bless all of you, and have a great day ahead. Let's fight for our rights! Au revoir :D



p/s: Sulking or not, you are always in my prayers <3

Assalmualaikum and a very good day I bid to all of you :)

Well I have nothing much to say really but just nak share something je. My batch starting from this semester had been working on a monthly bulletin for our dentist community here in Alexandria. So hari tu they were like looking for people to contribute any forms of writings or sketches untuk they put it up on the bulletin tu. Lalu seorang hamba Allah bernama Nur Syamimi Izzati ni pun tiba-tiba terasa macam nak write something. And at that time ada la idea sikit kan but takde la interesting mana pun, but at least ada modal nak menulis kan. So I submitted my post to the ajk media and I told them already my story ni boring je. However semalam masa bulletin flyers tu dah published and dah diedarkan, I saw my story was published. Dayyummm malu gila baq hanggg T_T  Nanti habis la classmates aku tengok apa benda laa aku dok merapu. I don't have the talent to write pun, so memang segan laaa :/

But since it's out there, so lemme make it out even more. Hahaha. I'm gonna paste it here, my story. So, nah laa kalau rajin baca kalau tak rajin tak payah. Haha :D

Assalamualaikum.

We all know what had been going on in Gaza right? Ya Allah, tak tau nak cakap macam mana tapi sedih sangat rasa. The first few days Gaza under attack, I was so depressed I felt guilty to even be happy and live my life normally, knowing well that my Muslim brothers and sisters are suffering in Palestine :'(  I even had to call up my mom on Skype, just to find comfort and help calm me down. All those pictures on Facebook and Twitter of kids being killed heartlessly is just too heartbreaking.



Even until today, I am still deeply affected, I bet most of us Muslims would be so. Saudara seislam kita is being killed as if they are worthless, as if nyawa mereka tu tak ada nilai langsung. Zionis memang kejam, hands down, sangat sangat kejam dan tidak berperikemanusiaan. Semoga Allah membalas segala perlakuan mereka ini dengan sekeras-keras azab. Diorang tak ingat bahawa there is much superior power up there. Mereka angkuh and mereka sombong. One day, they will definitely pay for whatever they had done.

Therefore, I beg to all of you out there to never stop praying for them. Never forget them in our prayers. Dengan doa kita ni jugalah yang akan bantu memberi mereka kekuatan, in sha Allah. Besides that, selain berdoa we must take action too. Doa sahaja tanpa usaha pun apalah gunanya kan? Hence, I urge all of you to start boycotting companies that support Israel. We have to try, though memang banyak sangat barang mereka yang widespread in markets worldwide (even a lot of my stuffs are from these companies, because most of the perfumes and cosmetics company effing support them! T_T). I is very sad indeed tsk tsk. But I must try, we must try, for the sake of our brothers and sisters in the holy land of Palestine. Think of this as our jihad. Tak apa la, start small first. Memang susah la untuk kita terus change in a flash the products we are using. Try to at least boycott those yang memang obviously supporters terbesar Israel i.e. McDonald's and Starbucks (even lambang Starbucks pun memang tersangatlah suspicious). Here I give you some of the companies yang memanglah like what the tuttt sebab gi support bangsa pembunuh cenggitu http://www.inminds.com/boycott-brands.html


Please do whatever that we are capable of, to support the people of Gaza. Sedekahkan doa, boycott syarikat syarikat pro-Israel, also kalau mampu give donations. Kat Malaysia pun banyak NGO yang memang membuat kerja amal untuk Palestin such as Aqsa Syarif. Bagilah any form of donations kat dorang, they would gladly accept it with open arms. Janganlah kita leka. Just because we are lucky, don't forget about those yang had been having sleepless nights, shelter had been destroyed, losing their parents and their loved ones. Don't ever ever forget that. May Allah bless all those syuhada'. Beruntungnya mereka dapat mati syahid, kerana syurga itu pasti buat mereka :')

Once again, before I end my this post I'm urging for all of us to at least do the best we can in order to fight for justice, giving the Palestinians their land back to them. Human rights had been breached for over 60 years, and they had been living in agony ever since. Please make this stop. Ya Allah, give them the stregth and help them win over the zionist. So, di dalam kita bersenang lenang jangan dilupakan mereka yaa. Plus, Egypt is bordering to Palestine, and maybe perhaps that is why I am deeply affected. Negara sebelah je weh :'(

Doa, doa, doa, and goodnight uolsss. May Allah bless.

Assalamualaikum :)

Greetings buat bulan November, yang telah pun kunjung tiba. Hihi. Cepat kan masa berlalu? Sedar tak sedar 2012 is coming to an end dah tak lama lagi. Lepas tu dah 2013, lepas tu 2014, lepas tu 2015 and graduate weeeee lepas tu boleh kahwin double triple weeeeeee! Lulzzz *ketuk kepala* Hihi saja fooling around uolsss :)

Bila dah masuk bulan baru ni, makin banyak la benda ye dop? Midterm dah dekat weh! And of course makin banyak buat cavity preparation and tampal gigi and nak kena submit all those requirements. Ahhh cuak sangat ni, sometimes dok rasa boleh ke I make it as a dentist tsk tsk T_T

Tapi walau macam mana pun, Miu Miu perlu kuatkan semangat jyeahhh! *muka ketat gila berkerut kepala semua* Demi menuntut ilmu, and to serve the people and the community (one of the main reason why I wanted to become a dentist, to help people be aware of their oral hygiene and condition). InsyaAllah, semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan, bukan saja untuk diri saya tapi untuk kalian di luar sana juga ye heee.

So setakat di sini sahaja, ada lagi perkara yang perlu diselesaikan. Esok nak keluaq pi mengundi oii, nak pi pilih ketua batch ngan penolong ketua batch baru! Bukan nak bersifat personal or anything, but I'm rooting for Kak Sha. The motherly and caring Kak Sha, the one who helped me the other day when I was doing mounting on the articulator (something to imitate the movement of maxilla and mandible of the patient) and time tu plaster yang dah dibancuh and dah dilekat kat articulator tu dah mula mengeras and my mounting jadi somewhat ugly and Kak Sha came to the rescue to help me save my articulator. I will never ever forget that. Thanks a lot Kak Sha. Kalau Kak Sha tak menang undi pun, you have won the hearts of so many including me. Love you Kak Sha :')

Okay, I gots to gooooo babaiiii uolsss :D

Not yours entirely,

Miu Miu :)


p/s: Sempena masuk bulan baru, why not hype ourselves up kan? Semangat la sikit konon hihi. This is a song I love and makes me kinda enthusiastic hihi. Enjoy :)

Assalamualaikum :)

Setelah sekian lama menyepikan diri, Mimi akhirnya kembali ke ruangan blogger weeeeeeeee! Dah lama tak menulis. Bukan apa, tapi I've been very very busy sampai macam nak amek nafas pun tak sempat rasa sometimes. Haha. Class memang packed sangat, pagi sampai petang sometimes even 8-5 straight with no gaps at all. Nak pengsan rasa tau dak. Tapi nasib baik la Allah masih memberi diri ini kekuatan untuk meneruskan hidup seharian. Demi mencapai cita-cita sebagai seorang doktor gigi, some things perlu dikorbankan. InsyaAllah akan tercapai jua satu hari nanti *glistening eyes*

So macam mana raya haji anda semua? Mesti best kan, especially kalau balik beraya kat kampung huhu. Masuk tahun ni dah 3 tahun dah Mimi beraya di perantauan, jauh dari keluarga tercinta. Rindu sangat nak balik beraya kat Kedah, toksah cakap laa. Teringat semua masakan mak and makcik makcik. How everyone would gather, pastu yang laki dok melapah kat depan, pastu yang pompuan semua kat belakang  dok memasak. Ahhh rindu sangattt! Daging rebus makan ngan ayaq asam pastu lidah bakaq ahhhhh sedihhh T_T

Tapi sedar tak sedar, dah 3 tahun jugak berjauhan dari family, meaning I'm already half way dah untuk nak menggenggam ijazah pergigian. 2 years plus plus lagi tinggal, and I'm leaving Alexandria for good already. Cepat masa berlalu sebenarnya. Hihi. Sabaq sikit ja lagi naa Mimi.

Our raya this year is very simple, always is. First day raya tuu, we went to Bangunan Mara untuk nak solat raya bersama-sama. And then lepas tu ada laa jamuan ringan sikit. Dah habis makan tu balik rumah and kitorang keluar balik gi Carrefour nak beli barang barang sebab the next day nak buat open house heee. So basically, kami beraya di Carrefour! How sad is that? And to make it even sad-er, che makan lunch McD! Big Mac fish fillet to be exact. Memang takdak unsur korban langsung T_T

That night, kami serumah berkerja bersama-sama, menyiang itu dan ini pastu masak rendang siap siap malam tu jugak with all the nasi himpit and ketupat jugak. I prepared sambal tumis ikan bilis malam tu to go with lontong, which I made the next morning. Malam tu tidur lambat and esok pagi bangun pulak sambung kerja masing-masing. I prepared 2 pots of lontong, quite banyak actually. Alhamdulillah menjadi, dapat respond yang baik dari mereka yang datang open house hihi.

We invited our classmates, and dorang start datang around 2pm macam tu. Meriah jugak la, sebab we prepared makanan raya, and pasang lagu raya semua, dengan speaker segala. Haha. Memang feel raya habis laaa. It was fun, just us girls, komuniti alexdent. Makan pun puas laa, thanks to my housemates sebab semua berkerja gigih untuk mensajikan raya yang terbaik buat kami semua yang rindukan tanah air tsk tsk. Love uolsss so muchhhh!
With love from Alexandria,

Dr Mimi :)

I'm too busy, my schedule is too packed. I can't find the time to blog at the moment. I need to revise so many things. I am scared because pre-clinical year is ain't no joke challenging. Next week also got test after 2 weeks of class. I need to study a lot of things. Therefore I shall go. Goodbye for now. I miss you bloggie woggie, but farewell...

Hello and assalamualaikum :)

Dear readers (or stalkers ecehhh macam laa ramai sangat orang dok follow blog ni lulzzz), I am sorry for my absence. I've been long gone and I had disappeared from the world of writing. Alahai macam la hang tu writer hebat sangat kan ayat kencang jaa haha. Yeah okay whatever. Anyways, dah lama tak update blog ni kan. Mengapakah?

Well firstly I was too caught up in my own daily life doing this and that. Walaupun sebenarnya ada masa tapi I just couldn't spare some time to actually write, ya dig? The whole time I was in Malaysia, I only wrote one post, itu pun sebab nak dedikasikan kata-kata semangat buat dia yang kehilangan. Lepas tu, ghaib terus. Sampai la dah balik sini balik baru laa rasa nak bukak blogger ni and actually write something. Lagipun yegaizzz, I macam ada writer's block. Macam tak inspired. Bukannya tak dak stories to tell, ada jaa. Everyday of our lives memang ada ja kan perkara yang berlaku.It's just that I can't bring myself to sit down in front of the laptop and start typing. There were a few times where I tried figuring out what to write, but I just can't. Macam kalau main The Sims and you're not inspired, tak boleh nak buat kerja kan.

Secondly, having gadgets ni memang limitkan time that I spent using my laptop. Jarang sangat dah nak bukak laptop. Che boleh jaa nak tengok 'Adam dan Hawa' kot iPad ni siap boleh bawak masuk dapoq lagi sambil dok goreng cucoq udang. Haa memang liat dah la nak guna laptop when you can easily carry around and online and all kan. Boleh kira ngan jari laa berapa kali guna laptop masa balik cuti hari tu. Even now kat sini pun. The reason why I'm using laptop now pun sebab I felt like writing. Phones and stuffs memang dah memisahkan daku dan si laptop merah ini yang telah pun menunjukkan tanda tanda uzur sedikit tapi masih mampu bertahan dengan baik. I lebiu to the end baby, no worries. Walaupun hang suka mengeluaqkan bunyi bising tapi terima kasih sebab bagi che peluang nak tengok korea dan juga movies omputih, melayu serta hindustan <3

Asalnya tujuan sebenar nak write ni sebab I was trying to sum up my summer break and cerita serba sedikit what I've done over the summer tapi in the end post ni jadi post di mana saya membebel dan ngepek tak sedaq ke dunia. Oh Lord, save me. Haha. Tapi maybe I'll do that one in the next post pulak ka naa. Lagipun I still have not been able to retrive the pictures from Eizah and Ica during my trip to Terengganu. Banyak gambaq dalam camera depa. Entah bila boleh dapat. Kalau tak dapat maybe do a post without much pics la kot :(  Tapi tu laa, I kinda regret the fact that I did not snap gambaq bebanyak when I was there, and when I was in Kelantan. I was too soaked up, enjoying my time there sampai tak berat pasal pics. I was like, "kita abadikan dalam kotak minda ja laa". Yeah right, so foolish of me. Memang la the memories stay put in my mind tapi, you still wanna see pictures at one point. Urghhh. Geram dengan diri sendiri T_T

Okay laa, stop la Mimi oi membebel tak sudah. Belle pun sampai dok tidoq sebelah laptop ni tangan kaki suma naik dah, kaki tu siap kena tangan I yang dok menaip ni tau. Kemain kucing ni. Nasib baik comel and memang you are like my son pun. Kalau tidak jangan harap laa I nak anje anje ngan you tau. Hahaha. Okay dah la, seriously need to stop. Dah la I'm coughing to the extend I'm feeling tired and mata ni sakit sebab macam pressure tau on my head. So uncomfortable, the feeling. Suara iolsss pun dah macam jantan dah yegaizzz. Tak sexy babyyy. Haha okay that's it! Goodnight and goodbye from Alexandria. May Allah bless!

Much love,

Mimi, 1/6 mother of Belle :)

Assalamualaikum and a very good evening ladies and gentleman.

Today, I'm gonna write something that is solely and truly from this heart of mine. This afternoon, something happened. It didn't happen to me, but to a dear someone. A dear friend, you can say. What happened was his sister passed away. Why exactly, I don't know. I had not had the opportunity to engage a conversation with him that much. Of course it is something inevitable. So many things had to be done and all I perceive. I can't imagine what he's going through right now, also what his family is going through right now. It must be tough, but I believe and I pray to Allah that they will get through this with much ease insyaAllah, with the help from the Almighty.

As we all know, matters of life and death and soal jodoh, everything had been destined by Allah since, I don't know when for only God knows each and every single tiny weeny thing. But everything had been preset, and when the time comes, we have to go back to our Creator. As for today, his sister had been called back to be with Him and we can only pray for the best. May Allah bless her soul and place her in a good place beside Him, insyaAllah. Some people say, having to be called back to your Lord in the month of Ramadan is somehow a blessing you know. When I talked to my mother, she said that insyaAllah, Jannah is awaiting her. Let us hope so, yeah?

To tell you the truth, I don't know why but I was rather taken aback by this. I don't even know his sister personally and yet it hits me quite deeply. I kept thinking, how things can be so sudden and how her family is holding up with her passing away. How a mother would feel, to lose a daughter. I had so many things going through my mind and I had a fair share of tears too. I was also thinking of him, like how would he handle this abrupt change in his life. My mind wonders back and forth. But alhamdulillah, he seems to handle things quite well. I'm pretty sure he must be really sad deep down but that is just how he rolls. No matter what he feels, happy, sad, or even mad, he would keep himself composed and calm. He is indeed a positive person. Not everyone is able of being like that, isn't it?
Therefore, I really hope that you'll stay strong and stay calm and composed like you always do. Okay?  :)


One more thing that ran through my mind is the fact that death is coming to you, be it sooner or later. 
When the time comes, you, me, we will all be going back to where we come from. It will come so sudden and so abrupt, that sometimes people around you can't seem to brain that you're gone. Ya Allah, looking back at myself, I know I am not yet ready to go because I have sinned so much and I'm afraid that I won't have the chance to repent. But ready or not, day by day you are coming closer to the end of your life here in this world. That's why we have to always remind ourselves constantly of death, so that we can do something to become better in His sight. I was scared, I was sad and I had this cocktails of feelings earlier this evening. I hope that with this, I can become a better person, a muslimah insyaAllah that is blessed by her Creator and also her parents. When my time comes, I hope I would be leaving in a good way, husnul khatimah. And I pray the same for you guys too. Let us strive so that we can have a good life in the hereafter insyaAllah. I'm not perfect, I sinned everyday of my life, but I'm hoping that we can help each other to be better.


Before I end, I just wanna say let us all recite Al-Fatihah and dedicate this one to my friend's sister. Let us pray that Allah bless her and place her among mukmins. InsyaAllah, Jannah awaits you. My deepest condolence goes to him and his family, and may Allah ease everything for them. InsyaAllah.


This is my cue to stop, therfore I shall end this here. Thank you for reading, to those who read. I hope we take a minute or two to think, and perhaps reevaluate ourselves. Same goes for me too. And with 
that, I am signing off for now.


Goodbye, and may Allah bless all of you.


Salam :)


p/s : This one, I'm writing this in the honour of what I believe to be a great sister, that I will never get to know. May Allah bless you <3 

Assalamulaikum and hello everyone :)

Apa khabar semua? Harap sihat sihat je semua. May you all be in great conditions and blessed by the Almighty. Alhamdulillah, today dah masuk 15 Ramadan dah pun. Cepat kan masa berjalan? I don't know why but it felt as if time flew, macam jet turbo or something haha. Rasa macam tak ready pulak tengok that Ramadan dah semakin meninggalkan kita. For all we know, entah sempat ke tak nak sampai ke next Ramadan kan. Sedih and I'm scared if takde dah kesempatan nak bertemu lagi bulan mulia yang penuh keampunan ni :(

Sometimes I feel like I haven't make good use of this month yet. Yes, I do read the Quran and go for tarawikh and do a little bit of this and that but it doesn't seem to be enough at all. Kalau nak compare ngan orang yang lagi baik kan, mesti dorang macam make full use of this month. It amazed me the fact that even pak imam pun boleh menangis mintak doa diampunkan dosa, sedangkan dosa aku ni yang orang biasa biasa ni lagi la banyak bertimbun timbun. Serious terasa. I went to Masjid Negeri, Shah Alam tadi for iftaar and tarawikh and lepas habis 20 rakaat ada tazkirah from this one syeikh and masa nak tutup tu dia baca doa laa. And panjang doa dia, banyak mintak forgiveness from Allah and he became all sebak and choked up, and it hits me that itu imam okay yang dok regret his sins. What about me kan? I must have done more sins for I am hugely flawed.


Kadang kadang rasa susah nak concentrate and be consistent dengan amalan kita. Plus, hati kita ni selalu suka buat kita rasa macam macam. It's hard, you know? We always have to battle with our nafsu. We know what is right and what is wrong, but we always seem to be not so bright and do things that won't really please Allah. Tapi Allah tu maha pengampun, and he is willing to forgive us as long as we ask for his forgiveness and repent. He is so generous and utmost loving, giving us His love and abundance but we're stupid enought to overlook all of that and be ungrateful of the life we had sometimes. God had gave us the best of life, for He knows what we are capable of. Yeah, sometimes life can be harsh and tough on you sometimes, but He did that only because He loves you and He wants you to ask for him more and more. Allah suka bila hamba-Nya meminta padanya. How generous can our God be, right? :')

Sekarang ni, lagi half of Ramadan sahaja yang tinggal, and we have to try to make the best out of it. Baki 2 minggu yang ada ni, kita kena try to optimise kan laa. Banyak benda kita boleh buat tau, i.e recite the Quran (kalau rasa tak rajin dengar pun dah dapat pahala), banyakkan solat sunat, zikir and selawat, and bila tengok "30 Minit Bersama Ustaz Don"the other day dia cakap bulan ni kurangkan la dengar lagu. Kalau selalunya kita dok dengar almost all the time, dia cakap kurang kurangkan laa. Boleh je nak dengar dia kata, tapi tunggu la dah malam, bila dah habis tarawikh semua. Lebih kurang macam tu la Ustaz Don cakap. Just to make sure that kita jaga laa pahala puasa kita di siang hari, insyaAllah.

Okay laa, dah lambat pun ni. I've became nocturnal, and I hate it T_T Oh God, help me huhu. Signing off for now, and hopefully kita sama sama laa make good use of bulan Ramadan ye. Semoga segala urusan dipermudahkan for y'all out there. Stay cool, stay calm (padahal diri sendiri pun dok macam irritable grizzly bear haha), and rock out to Ramadan while we still can hehe. May Allah bless, and selamat bersahur and selamat berpuasa :)

Toodles!

I miss writing, but I just can't seem to find the time. I can't sleep. I'm not pretty sure if it is still jet lag or I've gotten used to staying up late and sleep only after subuh. Seriously, my biological clock had gone haywire. I'm worried  though, because I keep waking up during noon, and I don't have much time left until iftaar. This is serious, people (ecehhh over). I just need a good sleep, that is all. 

Assalamualaikum and hello :)

As I am writing this, I am actually having mixed emotions. First and foremost, tomorrow is the day I'm going to catch my flight back to Malaysia and I'll arrive on Saturday at 8.40pm according to the schedule insyaAllah. Of course I am happy about going back to my beloved homeland that I've missed pretty badly. I'm happy that I'll be able to be with my family again, mak ayah, abang and bangah. Especially bangah, the closest to me for he would always layan me, take me here and there and belanja me tengok wayang, eat, and jalan jalan. I would not need to spend a penny whenever I'm with him. What a nice brother I have hihi.

Secondly, I am also anxious. About what exactly? Well, I promised myself I won't be talking much about my personal life but all I can say is, this summer break insyaAllah it will be the first time ever, ever, that I'm gonna meet someone face to face. After being introduced by my best friend here in Egypt, and getting to know each other, this might be it. I don't know what to expect, and I dare not put high expectations. I'm nervous, and I do have my insecurities (about myself especially). However, I'm only hoping for the best, and may Allah bless us both and make this friendship last and may it end well. InsyaAllah.

To tell you the truth, my emotion state right now is not that good. I had been having an over-dramatic period, whereby I'm being perhaps irrational and neurotic. I don't know. All I know is I always feel like crying and I'm helpless. I was sulking big time, against the world. Hmm. Actually, "world" is just a metaphor, I'm not depicting the whole world, it's something specific. But I'm not going into details. I mean come on, how many of you actually enjoy some crazy woman writing her heart out and saying stuff that might just not make sense? Haha. Whatever it is, I decided to make myself 'ghaib' for a while. I guess that is what I need at the moment. The constant feeling of someone not caring or ambil kisah about you is sometimes sickening. It sucks when you alone yang persistant, macam embarrassing in a way. So, escaping might just be my way out at this period of time.

Seriously, I'm having cocktails of feelings. Happy, anxious, emo in a way, but actually tak sabar nak face the coming days. I don't know how to put it in words. Le sigh.

Oh and yeah, Ramadan is here people! The holy month of Ramadan that comes only once a year and kita pun tak sure if we are able to get through until the next one. Life is too short you just don't know if you'll live long enough to meet the next Ramadan kan? Here in Egypt, esok dah mula puasa. Friday the 20th is the first day of Ramadan in Egypt, while in Malaysia the first day of Ramadan is the 21st of July *cough cough*. So, my fellow Muslim brothers and sisters, Happy Ramadan Kareem/ Kulli Sannah Wa Enti Toyyyibin (that's how they say it over here in Egypt hihi). May we make the best out of it, and may Allah bless us all and kurniakan pahala berlipat ganda to us all. InsyaAllah. Let us race to gain His blessings.

That is all from me as of this moment. InsyaAllah will be writing again once I'm back home heeeee.  Esok tengahari dah nak naik transport gi airport so by noon dah kena tutup laptop and all. This will be my last post from bumi Mesir yang barakah ini. Aww sebak pulak bila cakap macam tu. I'm gonna miss this bumi anbiya'. Suasana Ramadan kat sini memang meriah but tak dapat merasa lagi. Maybe in later years perhaps. Signing off right now, selamat berpuasa okay :)

Au revoir.

*Nancy Ajram's Ebn El Geran playing in the background*

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps :)

Here I am, writing this post while getting my groove on listening to an Arabic song. Teehee. Selalu kalau keluar rumah, memang akan dengar lagu arab sebab in the taxi and kat kedai kedai semua dorang selalu pasang lagu arab, ataupun Quran recitation. It's either one laa. Tapi sekarang ni, I'm like really hooked on lagu arab. Somehow rasa macam nak gelek gelek pun ada. After two years living here in Egypt, setelah sekian lama dok dengar lagu arab merata, baru sekarang betul betul nak menghayati. Haha. Sebenarnya, best jugak lagu arab ni tau. Most of their songs are the ones that make you wanna get up and just joget you know. Haha. Tak tau la orang lain, but that's the case for me la teehee.

Aside from that, I was hoping that when I dok dengar lagu arab ni then somehow my command in Arabic language pun akan improve la ecehhh. Tapi ye la kan, dah nama pun duduk Mesir. So time kat sini laa kan nak try and discover semua ni. At least nanti bila dah tua sikit boleh cerita kat anak anak, "Oh masa mama study kat Mesir dulu mama suka dengar lagu arab ni... bla bla bla...". Haha okay apa kaitan? Haha serious tak tau. Yeah, but I find myself beginning to enjoy the music of the Arabs :)

Oh gosh, apa la I buat ni kan macam takde exam je. Padahal tengah finals sekarang. Tapi saja nak share my new found love towards Nancy Ajram dan lagu arab haha. Okay la tu je kot nak cakap for now. Nak kena go freshen up and then study Pathology! 9 systems of the body is waiting to be covered. Wuarghhh. Gila laa, rasanya memang exam ni konfom keluar banyak CVS sebab Dr Amani cakap Dr Samar memang suka bab bab heart ni. Le sigh. Aside from covering chapters yang tak pernah masuk quiz lagi, seniors advice kena focus yang system awal awal jugak. Dah la essay semua. Rasa macam dead meat gila, but mana boleh menyerah before even berjuang pun! No Mimi, kena usaha lebih. You have to! *psycho diri sendiri*

Setakat ni saja la from me today, will write more when I do have the time, and rasa macam nak write hehe. Bye semua, doakan saya dan rakan-rakan gigians saya eh. Thanks uolsss. May Allah bless you all :)

Au revoir.


p/s: This is a song that I love from Nancy Ajram. Enjoy :)

I was going through a Facebook page that I liked, "Activists Around The World For Palestine" is the name of the page if I am not mistaken. While going through it, I discovered this one journalist named Harry Fear and he is currently doing reports/film documentary in Gaza. I can't help but be fascinated by him. He's British and he is currently residing in Gaza, risking his life in order to gain stories from the people of Palestine. I have nothing but respect towards the man. How courageous can he be.

Assalamualaikum and a very good day :)

First and foremost, I am psyched sebab Spain masuk semi finals. Hik hik. Okay it's a good thing, but that's not the reason why I'm writing this right now.

The main reason I'm writing this post is to actually introduce to y'all, something that I personally like and am very fond of and I think it's pretty awesome. My classmate, Sofia Zulfikar and her housemates dah set up a new line (as I would like to call it) with the name "The Azaritas", whereby they sell tudungs and shawls untuk wanita wanita di luar sana. Semua tudung ni is from Egypt ye fyi, memandangkan kami semua pelajar pergigian di bumi Mesir :)

Some of you might ask, why am I fond sangat of their line ni? Banyak je kot online business sekarang ni so what's so special about this? Well, let me tell you. This one is unique in it's own way, because besides selling tudung, they are actually doing it for a cause. Cause apakah yang saya maksudkan?


This is what I meant when I said they were doing it for a cause. Nampak tak tag line "Let's wear it right this time yalla bina!" (btw yalla bina tu maksud dia macam "let's go" or "come on" laa). Actually what they meant by 'wearing it right' is to wear your hijab the right way. The right way tu lagu mana hampa tanya? Pakai tudung dah pakai, dah tu apa yang tak kena lagi? Sebenarnya memakai tudung doesn't mean that you dah menutup aurat dengan sempurna. The right way to wear your hijab is to actually cover your chest. Maksudnya di sini melabuhkan tudung. Tak kisah laa hampa nak pakai tudung lilit ka bawal ka, yang penting kena tutup dada tu sayang sayang sekalian. Saya cakap ni bukan sebarang cakap je, benda ni memang ada dalam Al-Quran pun. Let me quote maksud ayat tu.

"And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands' fathers, their sons, their husbands' sons, their brothers, their brothers' sons, their sisters' sons, their women, that which their right hands possess, or those male attendants having no physical desire, or children who are not yet aware of the private aspects of women. And let them not stamp their feet to make known what they conceal of their adornment. And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed."


(Surah An-Nur, ayat 31)


So my lovely sisters, let us take baby steps dalam mencari redha Allah shall we? Allah dah bagitau dah kat kita, tinggal kita je nak patuh ke tak perintah dia. Kita ni manusia, memang full of sins. I myself pun banyak sangat sins kalau nak kira, but Tuhan itu maha penyayang and peluang untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan tu sentiasa terbuka, cuma kita nak tak nak je. Saya sendiri pun masih belajar, and saya masih banyak buat silap tapi I have to learn laa, in order to gain his blessings kan? Islam tak larang kita untuk indulge ourselves into fashion, cuma kita perlu ikut guidelines yang Allah dah set upon us as Muslims. Melabuhkan tudung menutupi dada and memakai baju yang loose does not make you not cool, ladies. If you pandai bergaya, even when you cover your aurat sebaiknya, you would look uber cool. I bagi contoh laa, Maria Elena. If any of you yang follow dia, mesti korang perasan kan yang dia sekarang dah move towards being a better muslimah. Yet she still looks pretty and I think that she looks super cool. Thumbs up to Marie Elena btw (kita memang suka dia hik hik) :D

Assalamualaikum and good day :)

Picture courtesy of Anis Nadia :)

Assalamualaikum.

Well well, this is officially my first post in my new blog! Hihi. Excited sat. I actually had this one blog previously, migorengbasah which I have had for almost 4 years already but I decided to not make it public anymore. Kalau ada di kalangan anda stalker saya mesti anda tau blog yang saya maksudkan ini miahaha.

The reason for me to not make it public anymore is simple. In these past 4 years, so many things had happened. Tersangat la banyak, and when I was younger I would always blogged just about anything, even benda kecik pun nak blog and it felt ridiculous. I must say, I was silly back then. What do you expect? I was 16 and fatter (nak jugak mention, nak kata dia kurus dari zaman sekolah menengah lettew).

Today I am already 20, and I have changed from just a little high school girl into what I would put as a woman-in-the-making. I dare not say I am already a woman because a part of me is still a little immature though I am seriously working on to become a better woman, a Muslimah to be exact. I used to blog about crappy stuff, things yang tak membawa manfaat pun actually, but I have come to realise that it's about time that I make a little change. Let's write about something that will be beneficial to me, and for those who would actually care to read. Yes, I maybe write a little bit about things that are revolving around my life, but I will try to make this less personal (sebab blog lama dulu suka emo sorang-sorang).

Honestly I am struggling, to improve myself to become a better person. That is why I am trying to open a new book, you know. It's not like I'm gonna forget the old ones, it will be safe in my box of memories that I would like to keep to myself, only me. I was not that good of a person and I would love to change, and mencari redha Ilahi. I hope now I will only share good stuffs, not some crappy crazy talking. May I mature into a lady in this process :)

Okay first post pun panjang berjela =_= Typical Mimi, talk talk and talk some more. Haih. Dah nak macam crappy talk da je ni padahal tadi baru cakap berazam tak nak do crappy talking dah. That is all for now lovelies. May Alah bless each and everyone of you and not forgetting, our brothers and sisters in Syria and Palestine. Ingat, keep praying for them okay?

Adieu.