Akhirnya setelah sekian lama menanti, we finally got our internet! Thank God, we feel so blessed :')  Lepas dapat tu rasa macam nak nangis je, teary-eyed a bit sebab dah macam penat kot tunggu for so long. It was very tiring, and it was very emotional too (for me laa because I am emo liddat haha). So yeah, here I am finally blogging again. I must say, rindu sangat kot blogging. Memang la hari tu macam malas and I kinda suffered from writer's block, and honestly sekarang ni pun takdak idea sangat pun but all I know is I miss blogging.

Rasa macam dah lama sangat enclosed sebab sebelum ni I was very open about what I feel. Tulis macam macam, itu ini, marah la sedih la happy laa. Tapi sekarang ni, as I matured day by day (matured ka che oi hehe) I learned to think deeper. Bukan semua benda you can share with the rest of the world. There are some things that needs to be kept only for yourself, betoi dak? Thus, I'm gonna be a bit selective kot when it comes to writing after this. Sometimes it's good to share what you feel but you have to remember that orang lain maybe akan baca, and if la katakan they have something against you then you'll be exposed, transparent. We don't want that, do we?

My point is, mulai sekarang I won't really be open about every single thing. Tak mau dah dok buat macam kat blog migorengbasah dulu. Actually rindu kot migorengbasah, sebab I had been writing there for 4 years, since 2008 tapi disebabkan ini laa, I was too open about everything so I decided to not open it anymore. I don't want people to go and dig on my past, sebab I've changed. Kalau dulu aku dok letak gambar yang perhaps aku dok pakai skinny jeans, or baju tangan 3/4, now I've left all of that behind. Kalau orang ramai dok tengok, tak ke aku dapat dosa free free? Tak mau la macam tu kalau boleh kan. Mati dah makin dekat, so nak la pahala bertingkat and kurangkan dosa, walaupun aku ni actually banyak flaws and I am not a good servant of Allah pun. I feel so ashamed :(

For now tu saja la kot, che nak kena study sebenaqnya. Exam dah dekat, pastu pulak baru dapat internet. Memang laa #BadLuckMalay. Lulzzz. Looking forward to writing again, goodbye for now  ^______^