Life As I Know It

Assalamualaikum and a very good evening ladies and gentleman.

Today, I'm gonna write something that is solely and truly from this heart of mine. This afternoon, something happened. It didn't happen to me, but to a dear someone. A dear friend, you can say. What happened was his sister passed away. Why exactly, I don't know. I had not had the opportunity to engage a conversation with him that much. Of course it is something inevitable. So many things had to be done and all I perceive. I can't imagine what he's going through right now, also what his family is going through right now. It must be tough, but I believe and I pray to Allah that they will get through this with much ease insyaAllah, with the help from the Almighty.

As we all know, matters of life and death and soal jodoh, everything had been destined by Allah since, I don't know when for only God knows each and every single tiny weeny thing. But everything had been preset, and when the time comes, we have to go back to our Creator. As for today, his sister had been called back to be with Him and we can only pray for the best. May Allah bless her soul and place her in a good place beside Him, insyaAllah. Some people say, having to be called back to your Lord in the month of Ramadan is somehow a blessing you know. When I talked to my mother, she said that insyaAllah, Jannah is awaiting her. Let us hope so, yeah?

To tell you the truth, I don't know why but I was rather taken aback by this. I don't even know his sister personally and yet it hits me quite deeply. I kept thinking, how things can be so sudden and how her family is holding up with her passing away. How a mother would feel, to lose a daughter. I had so many things going through my mind and I had a fair share of tears too. I was also thinking of him, like how would he handle this abrupt change in his life. My mind wonders back and forth. But alhamdulillah, he seems to handle things quite well. I'm pretty sure he must be really sad deep down but that is just how he rolls. No matter what he feels, happy, sad, or even mad, he would keep himself composed and calm. He is indeed a positive person. Not everyone is able of being like that, isn't it?
Therefore, I really hope that you'll stay strong and stay calm and composed like you always do. Okay?  :)


One more thing that ran through my mind is the fact that death is coming to you, be it sooner or later. 
When the time comes, you, me, we will all be going back to where we come from. It will come so sudden and so abrupt, that sometimes people around you can't seem to brain that you're gone. Ya Allah, looking back at myself, I know I am not yet ready to go because I have sinned so much and I'm afraid that I won't have the chance to repent. But ready or not, day by day you are coming closer to the end of your life here in this world. That's why we have to always remind ourselves constantly of death, so that we can do something to become better in His sight. I was scared, I was sad and I had this cocktails of feelings earlier this evening. I hope that with this, I can become a better person, a muslimah insyaAllah that is blessed by her Creator and also her parents. When my time comes, I hope I would be leaving in a good way, husnul khatimah. And I pray the same for you guys too. Let us strive so that we can have a good life in the hereafter insyaAllah. I'm not perfect, I sinned everyday of my life, but I'm hoping that we can help each other to be better.


Before I end, I just wanna say let us all recite Al-Fatihah and dedicate this one to my friend's sister. Let us pray that Allah bless her and place her among mukmins. InsyaAllah, Jannah awaits you. My deepest condolence goes to him and his family, and may Allah ease everything for them. InsyaAllah.


This is my cue to stop, therfore I shall end this here. Thank you for reading, to those who read. I hope we take a minute or two to think, and perhaps reevaluate ourselves. Same goes for me too. And with 
that, I am signing off for now.


Goodbye, and may Allah bless all of you.


Salam :)


p/s : This one, I'm writing this in the honour of what I believe to be a great sister, that I will never get to know. May Allah bless you <3 

Assalamulaikum and hello everyone :)

Apa khabar semua? Harap sihat sihat je semua. May you all be in great conditions and blessed by the Almighty. Alhamdulillah, today dah masuk 15 Ramadan dah pun. Cepat kan masa berjalan? I don't know why but it felt as if time flew, macam jet turbo or something haha. Rasa macam tak ready pulak tengok that Ramadan dah semakin meninggalkan kita. For all we know, entah sempat ke tak nak sampai ke next Ramadan kan. Sedih and I'm scared if takde dah kesempatan nak bertemu lagi bulan mulia yang penuh keampunan ni :(

Sometimes I feel like I haven't make good use of this month yet. Yes, I do read the Quran and go for tarawikh and do a little bit of this and that but it doesn't seem to be enough at all. Kalau nak compare ngan orang yang lagi baik kan, mesti dorang macam make full use of this month. It amazed me the fact that even pak imam pun boleh menangis mintak doa diampunkan dosa, sedangkan dosa aku ni yang orang biasa biasa ni lagi la banyak bertimbun timbun. Serious terasa. I went to Masjid Negeri, Shah Alam tadi for iftaar and tarawikh and lepas habis 20 rakaat ada tazkirah from this one syeikh and masa nak tutup tu dia baca doa laa. And panjang doa dia, banyak mintak forgiveness from Allah and he became all sebak and choked up, and it hits me that itu imam okay yang dok regret his sins. What about me kan? I must have done more sins for I am hugely flawed.


Kadang kadang rasa susah nak concentrate and be consistent dengan amalan kita. Plus, hati kita ni selalu suka buat kita rasa macam macam. It's hard, you know? We always have to battle with our nafsu. We know what is right and what is wrong, but we always seem to be not so bright and do things that won't really please Allah. Tapi Allah tu maha pengampun, and he is willing to forgive us as long as we ask for his forgiveness and repent. He is so generous and utmost loving, giving us His love and abundance but we're stupid enought to overlook all of that and be ungrateful of the life we had sometimes. God had gave us the best of life, for He knows what we are capable of. Yeah, sometimes life can be harsh and tough on you sometimes, but He did that only because He loves you and He wants you to ask for him more and more. Allah suka bila hamba-Nya meminta padanya. How generous can our God be, right? :')

Sekarang ni, lagi half of Ramadan sahaja yang tinggal, and we have to try to make the best out of it. Baki 2 minggu yang ada ni, kita kena try to optimise kan laa. Banyak benda kita boleh buat tau, i.e recite the Quran (kalau rasa tak rajin dengar pun dah dapat pahala), banyakkan solat sunat, zikir and selawat, and bila tengok "30 Minit Bersama Ustaz Don"the other day dia cakap bulan ni kurangkan la dengar lagu. Kalau selalunya kita dok dengar almost all the time, dia cakap kurang kurangkan laa. Boleh je nak dengar dia kata, tapi tunggu la dah malam, bila dah habis tarawikh semua. Lebih kurang macam tu la Ustaz Don cakap. Just to make sure that kita jaga laa pahala puasa kita di siang hari, insyaAllah.

Okay laa, dah lambat pun ni. I've became nocturnal, and I hate it T_T Oh God, help me huhu. Signing off for now, and hopefully kita sama sama laa make good use of bulan Ramadan ye. Semoga segala urusan dipermudahkan for y'all out there. Stay cool, stay calm (padahal diri sendiri pun dok macam irritable grizzly bear haha), and rock out to Ramadan while we still can hehe. May Allah bless, and selamat bersahur and selamat berpuasa :)

Toodles!